Time to make a change

Leave your home

Give to the poor all that you own

Lose your life so that you can find it

Break Through

Tonight for the first time I was able to view God in a way that I never have. I've always heard people talk about God as a lover, or in most women's case, as a husband. But I've never been able to really grasp that idea of God until tonight. I started writing down a bit of a synopsis of my relationship with God. When I finished and re-read it I realized that all of these things are attributes that I want in a husband. It was a really beautiful moment that I still can't quite understand or articulate, so I'm just going to share what I wrote.

Jesus, You are so good to me. You love me so much more than I deserve. You treat me like a woman. You see me as pure and stainless. You don't take advantage of me or force Yourself on me in anyway. You love me despite my imperfections, inconsistancies, and iniquities. You love me even while I'm selfish and don't love you back. You actually care to know me and love to listen to me talk. You think I'm funny when my corny side comes out. You laugh when I'm stubborn, sometimes. It's never too late at night for me to ask You to hold me. You don't have bad days and you comfort me when I do. You don't mind my morning breathe, in fact, You want me to talk toYou while I'm still in bed. You get overwhelmed with love and butterflies when I simply glance at you. You will always protect and defend me. You're proud of me. I'm Your glory. You wish to be with me at every moment. You understand my every hurt and pain. You're the only one out there that seems to be more "relational" than me. You love that I'm unique and different. You smile at my meek attempts to be artistic. You love when I sing at the top of my lungs. You like how I look in the color blue. You love when I ask to see deer. You think it's fun to play sports with me. You like to dance with me to Tye Tribbett. You know what I'm thinking before I say a single word.

You make me smile.

Happy Love Day!

Today was the best Valentine's day EVER!!

Colorful surprises

Starting from scratch

So God has been doing a lot interesting things in me lately. I'm not sure where my heart is right now but I do know that I feel like I'm supposed to start from scratch. I'm being ruined and it hurts but it's so lovely and beautiful at the same time.

Misty Edwards is doing a good job of playing her part in speeding up the ruining of my life.

"You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.
You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.

I'll set you as a seal upon my heart, as a seal upon my arm.
For there is love that is as strong as death,
Jealousy demanding as the grave.
Many waters cannot quench this love.

You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.
You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.

I'll set you as a seal upon my heart, as a seal upon my arm
For there is love that is as strong as death,
Jealousy demanding as the grave
And many waters cannot quench this love...
Waters cannot quench this love

You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.
You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.

Come be the fire inside of me,
Come be the flame upon my heart.
Come be the fire inside of me,
Until you and I are one."

"Put me like a seal over your heart, Like a seal on your arm. For love is as strong as death, Jealousy is as severe as Sheol; Its flashes are flashes of fire, The {very} flame of the LORD. Many waters cannot quench love, Nor will rivers overflow it; If a man were to give all the riches of his house for love, It would be utterly despised."